It's time for a change

I think it's time for a change. Mentally. I'm going to have a positive attitude my whole Senior year. I'm not going to let anyone get in my way. I may ditch some friends that are not worth the time. I want to get as many recruitment letters as I could receive. I'm going to work my butt off in the pool and out of the pool. I'm going to actually do my homwork.*Gasp* I know that'll be hard to do my homework since I never have time for it. Plus I have easy classes, why wouldnt I do the homwork? And I'm not going to get into drugs or anything. I'm going to a good kid just like I had promised the one that I care for. Well I'm off this lame thing.

You know what ticks me off

When there is a practice and several of people don't show up. I'm glad that people came because everyone needs to improve. But poor attendance is ridiculous. Do you want to win an SAL title and go further in CIF? Ugh I'm just ranting. I shouldn't care what people do. Because it's not season. I hope me busting my butt during the summer makes a difference. Whatever...

Why do I keep my feelings to myself?

I keep my feelings to my self because I am frightened that it'll make me look like I am weak to people. I don't show my feelings. I don't cry in public. I don't show affection to anyone. I don't tell anyone any secrets. I like to keep things to myself. I will not tell anyone that I like them or dislike them. But if you ask for advice, I'll give it to you. Or if a friend is harming themselves, I will talk to them and maybe give them influence not to do anything to harm themselves.

I am no saint. I'm me. I am who I am. People say I am the nicest person they know and I am flattered by their kind words. I know that I am a good person, but Im the person that I am because the way I was brought up.

Well I'm bored. And I apologize if my blogging is boring or unsatisfying. And I'm sorry for future blogs I write that I rant about stupid things.

My love for Shoes

I love vans. They're my favorite. I recently got new shoes. Blue and black checkered vans. I am obsessed with these kind of shoes. My next pair would be the same kind but they will be slip-ons. I haven't had slip-ons, since, 8th grade. I love these shoes. I think I'm being redundant, but who gives a eff. If you care you can suck it. Ha jk.

Well I also love converse, but low tops. I have a love for shoes.

And also I love nikes but not the ghetto kind.

This blog isn't interesting. And I apologize for my love of shoes.

Music

Oh of I love music. it's what keeps me sane. I love MGMT, Passion Pit, and Neon Trees. I love others but these are truely my top 3.

Does anyone know what the hotdog with a crutch, $ sign sunglasses, and money bag stand for on the MGMT t-shirts?

Religon

They are a total control freaks. But yet I still love them. I don't want to be Catholic. But they are forcing me to be one. I don't really care for the church. I believe there's a God. I dint believe in the Devil or Hell. And if there is a Hell, no ones in it. They both say, I would be the person I am if I wasn't catholic. And I don't think so. Because my thoughts and opinions are completely different from theirs. And also, they judge people. They are so judgemental, and when they ask me about the person/thing, my response is, "I don't care, why do you guys care so much?" and their answer is, "because look at the way they present themself." I think it is stupid to judge someone before you know them or converse with them. I am different from them, and they want me to become like them. I am rebelious, and I will not be a catholic or be a part of another form of religon. I am my own religon. I believe in what I believe and no one can tell me what to believe or brainwash me to believe in a certain way. That is not who I am. And I will no longer tolerate it. I am who I am. So accept me for who I am.

Me in a Nutshell

Life is hectic. People can be the best or they can be malicious. But who am I to judge? I'm not perfect, and neither is anyone else. So if someone talks crap about me or has an opinion about physical appearance, my thoughts, or my actions, I really don't give a crap. I'm not a dramatic person. I've been through a lot of crap, but some how I can forgive. I am who I am. So take it or leave it. I've done things that I'm not proud of and I've done things that I am proud of. I don't know where I want to go after college. I don't know what to do with my life.I'm open to suggestions.

My love life is not happening. And I don't care that I don't have a significant other. I don't really want one. But if it happens it happens. I guess I'm open to it. Ehh

I'm not black. I'm Mexican, Apache, and Spainard. Most say I'm white-washed. But you know what I say? I saw I'm American, and that's that.

I'm too dedicated to water polo, and so what, I'm training myself for a SAL championship and to get a lot better for college.